I think we’re alone now…

…doesn’t seem to be anyone around

There seems to be a recurring them in my life just now where people I know and like depart my life never to be seen again. It’s the nature of the work that I do now that people are around for limited periods of time, and then they return to their home country, or move on somewhere else. People that I get to know well, and become good friends with leave, and I’m left with a hole where they once were. It has happened countless times to me over the last year, and the sad thing is that they are never replaced. It is really difficult when you get close to people, enjoy their company, where they make you laugh and feel better about yourself, and suddenly they’re gone. With each departing person, I find it gets harder and harder.

The problem I can see at the moment is the conflict between spending as much time as possible with someone you know is leaving because you know time is short, or recognizing that they are leaving and standing off a little. I know that the more time spent with people I like, the more I get to know them, and the better a friend they become. And then I loose them. And sometimes I think it’s just too painful. I know however, that the right thing to do is to enjoy the moment, live for now, hang out, spend the time, because we do not know what the future will bring.

It just gets lonely being alone all the time